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I can't believe how much time has passed since I have written anything. I have been living my life and enjoying it. I turned 51 this year and it is fabulous. I  still on the healthy eating program. There is a little more less of me. I have had more talk time with my sons, though it now appears less with my daughter. She seems content and happy nd that is all hat is important to me. I will be back when there is more time to post pics of my latest adventures.

Ok, 30 days later. I am actually seeing less of me in the mirror. I happened to mention it to my friend, Katrina, who also happens to be my massage therapist and she said she noticed it when she was giving me a massage a few days before. Then she went on to say it was especially noticable when I was naked!!! Well, that just tickled me to no end, because my efforts are paying off. Hoodia did not work for me, so I started Special K in the AM and PM with snacks and regular meal at lunch. That is working. I am also not doing sweets ---at all!!! Can you imagine, no more birthday cake  My favorite thing in the whole world!!! But I am stronger than any birthday cake and I am proving it. I can't wait to take my pic and post it in about 6 months.

 I now have a real picture of why the guy showed up. For a moment I was made to feel beautiful, smart, desirable and my weight never came up (for either of us). I don't remember thinking at any point "Don't you see the fat girl" I was ok sending a picture of me now and it seemed to be well recieved. I felt like I am fine and in those few weeks I gained a new image of me. I realize I was walking past the mirror and actually liked what I saw. It dawned on me that when you love someone that you are looking at who they are, not what they look like, and I love me.

The reason God allowed me to open up enough for him to attract me was so the deepest root could be plucked. The root that made me feel if I lost weight I would be in jeopardy of returning to the old me. Well the lesson I learned is that I will do the right thing regardless, now I know I can and will lose the weight and be trusted to keep my covenant with God. That is an awesome revelation!! So today begins the new me..I am going to try Hoodia and see if it works. Wish me less of me!!!

I think I gave up on a chance to have real romance in my life. But if it ain't what God promised me, I don't want it. I had a friend from the past contact me and it was a great reconnection for us both, until I decided that I wanted to tell the truth about my life and how I choose to live it. I had to explain about why I am celibate and choose to remain that way for someone special. This man was pretty cool to chat with online and he is a fine brother, but he wasn't counting on that. So he sent me a note stating he understood and attached a song called It's Fine by Mary J. Blige. I went to the lyrics and I think he is gone. Oh well, wasn't meant for me. So I now have to figure out how to round up all this desire that got loose and put it back to sleep. Hopefully not for another 8 years.

Here I am, once again without any resolutions! I can't think of a single one to make that wouldn't get broken, so I won't make any. This way I don't lie to myself. I will however continue on my current path to eat more healthy and park my car further away. somewhere down the line I may get on my treadmill (hey, that wan't a resoulution) I'm just sayin'- is all!! My New Year's Eve was wonderful. I picked up my youngest son and went to church, he spent the night with me. We played Dominos and Scrabble, I baked a Chocolate pound cake, which he took home and it was a good night. He actually thanked me for a good time. I saw my daughter a short time on Christmas and I am always glad to view her. We went to the movies to see The Great Debaters, it was a good movie-I will own that one. This is going to be a good year. I will praise God for all the things I have been brought through and kept from in the past year and all He is taking me to. I believe He will continue to work in the lives of my children, to further their commitment to His Kingdom and to give Him the Glory for their accomplishments, when it is all said and done, everyone will know that it had to be God that did it. The number eight is the a new order or way of doing things to bring about a new beginning.